Joran... I...
I lost my arm. There were troopers at the other site. We dealt with the first batch, but when we got in to start looking around, there was a detonator. I guess I didn't get out of there fast enough. I don't remember really. Running. Then, the doc was there... and my arm was gone.
What am I going to do? I was working so hard to train those saber forms. And... ya know what. Forget that! I can't even function like this. Can you imagine what the others on 88 would say? I'd be a joke. No one would take me seriously- and really, why should they. I can't put up a good fight like this. I'm handicapped! In the truest sense of the word!!
Why am I even doing this? Why am I on this goose chase for old space magic and long lost wizards? All it's doing is putting a target on my head. One that I'm not good enough to outrun, or take out. It's the damn Empire J. The EMPIRE is after me.
I'm so scared. I don't know what to do right now. I wish you were here. You'd have some way of calming me down and getting a plan in place. I just sort of wish I could take back these past few months. Go back to the beginning and take a different path. It all feels too big. Too overwhelming. Too stupid a thing to chase.
And I swear... if these guys start trying to help me with every last thing. I'm going to punch THEM. I don't want to be coddled. I don't want to be treated differently.
... I don't want to be so damn useless.
I lost my arm. There were troopers at the other site. We dealt with the first batch, but when we got in to start looking around, there was a detonator. I guess I didn't get out of there fast enough. I don't remember really. Running. Then, the doc was there... and my arm was gone.
What am I going to do? I was working so hard to train those saber forms. And... ya know what. Forget that! I can't even function like this. Can you imagine what the others on 88 would say? I'd be a joke. No one would take me seriously- and really, why should they. I can't put up a good fight like this. I'm handicapped! In the truest sense of the word!!
Why am I even doing this? Why am I on this goose chase for old space magic and long lost wizards? All it's doing is putting a target on my head. One that I'm not good enough to outrun, or take out. It's the damn Empire J. The EMPIRE is after me.
I'm so scared. I don't know what to do right now. I wish you were here. You'd have some way of calming me down and getting a plan in place. I just sort of wish I could take back these past few months. Go back to the beginning and take a different path. It all feels too big. Too overwhelming. Too stupid a thing to chase.
And I swear... if these guys start trying to help me with every last thing. I'm going to punch THEM. I don't want to be coddled. I don't want to be treated differently.
... I don't want to be so damn useless.